long time.

Well, I haven't updated in a long time... I guess I mostly just vent when i go on here, which I don't mind, so I'm going to continue with that... So, with me and dan... That's not going good... Its so lame lately... Like everything that used to be amazing, is crashing and burning... I feel so helpless as I watch basically my life crumble into little pieces.. Dan just acts so different nowerdays, I'm guessing its because he takes upon so many more responsibilities than he did in the beginning of the relationship, and I still have zero responcibilities. Dan is in college, has a job, lives lightyears away... I do nothing. I live life, go to highschool, try to have some fun, but it's so hard with him... he's like a brick... All he wants to do is computer+music; I feel so left out, being an antinerd and having no musical talent.. We've been talking about doing a side project type thing, music wise, but it just doesn't happen... I feel like we have zip in common anymore and like we do nothing together, and he feels like he can't do all the things he used to do before we got "serious" or whatever... I dunnoh, it's just pretty lame. I love him more than anything ever, but I just don't know what to do, i never want to lose him EVER, I am so willing to change for Daniel that it's not even funny, I just don't know how to change... It's hard for me to change, but I'll do it... Even if it proves to suck balls for me, I don't care, I just want him to be happy... I miss having so much fun with him... And we have our moments of awesome, but I feel like we lack... Everything used to be so carefree when he used to be a highschooler, and ever since he's turned old, it's gone... Everything is...