One more time.

Here it goes again... How much fun.... Maybe I'm gonna take a hike today with my dad... That might be fun... Ugh. I want it all to end, too bad I'm too much of a pussy.

Anger.

It's so ridiculous how the people who do not deserve nice things, get everything... They breeze by, they smoke, drink, do nothing, get horrible grades, do horrible work, and yet they get anything they want from everyone around them... I like to call myself a really good student [All A's and B's with the exception of one class, that I wasn't even supposed to get out of, and so I got switched into a lower level], I don't smoke, I don't drink, I do the work I can, and I get pissed on... I never get rewarded. Sometimes, I think I should just give up on trying, maybe then someone will realize that I deserve some type of reward for my good behavior... I'm not being whiney or conceided or ungrateful, I just feel like I deserve better than what I've got, if these types of people get the most amazing things I can think of... It's just so unfair that this is going on... I don't understand any of this crap. Like seriously how is that the way things work? Who has designed this world to be this way? My parents can't afford to get me these things, even though I know the least I deserve is a freaking cell phone....

A tidbit of what i wish to do:

I wish to be in a band.
I enjoy singing, apparently i'm not *too* shabby..
I just lack the other elements of a band... Yuh know:
Drums
Guitar
Or synths+drum machine to make up for the guitar and drums ;;


I feel it would be SO kewl and fun, and daniel teased me by having us come up with a band name and everything, but he won't make a band with me :[
Anyone want to make a band.?

wowowow.

I'm going to Boston tonight on a field trip to see a dress rehearsal for some play... I have no idear which one... I'm basically more excited for taking the ride there with devin and madison and everyone from chorus[: It should be super amazingly fun. [: I've been SO tired lately, it's so lame... I went to a shiny toy guns concert the other night, and it was pretty depressing... Carah Faye quit the band, and the new girl [Sisely Treasure] is pretty good on the new songs, that she was part of writing and stuff, but she tried to pull off the old stuff, and it was just absolutely horrible. :[ And like no one realised how amazing Carah was [the people who were with me], since they'd never seen the band with her live... And I have and it was sad... And dan was being a douchy all night... It kinda sucked for a bit, but I still had lots of fun.... All American Rejects were WAY too loud, so I couldn't stand being in the actual show, so mee and dan went and sat in the lobby.... It was really good from out there... hah... :/

cause I'm just a teenage dirt bag baby, I listen to iron maiden babyyy;

So, basically... It all sucks. Nuff said.

lalalala.

Sooo;; I'm at the MadChi band practice... I took my pain meds and now i'm all dizzy and shaky and walkdsjf;lkasdf weird. haha;;; Fun xD. lollololol; but yeah, they have a shoowww tonighttt so that should be pretty kewl, lulz.